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I'm an 18 year old homosexual male and today I was told that I have anal HPV. So I'm not quite feeling sexy and free. I'm trying to keep a cynical outlook about this whole mess but I have my moments when I'm like.. Should I kill myself because of this? Then I'm like no and listen to Keri Hilson and imagine myself being happy and beautiful. I'm also on antidepressants but since my "colon and rectal specialist" told me this I've felt like my whole world is crumbling down around me, "Hi, Mr. Frost. You have anal HPV. Way to go. Its commonly found in gay males. Are you homosexual?" yes.. "okay well there's no cure you dumbass. You're going to die alone. But I can remove them and If they come back I can remove them again. And you'll have to tell your current partner or future partners most likely about this, you stupid whore." not his words exactly but the jist of how I translated it. I'm talking to a guy and I like him but now I feel like it's best if I just.. Fall out of his world. How am I supposed to tell him? "I love you and so does my anal HPV <3" .. I have surgery to get them removed the 9th.. :/ what do I do now? It's so embarrassing because I didn't have sex to get them. My ex and I tried but it was just weird so we didn't haha but apparently it was just enough to Fuck up my life permanently. Not only mine but my close friends, parents, family and anyone who can look past this atrocity.

 
By hiswife84 on Mon, 02-27-12, 21:02

My husband gave me herpes that he got from cheating with a girl we had a threesome with. :-/ it's not HPV but there's no cure either. With time it should get easier. Hav you done research are there things that trigger it like HSV? We have to avoid certain foods & activities & I have a milder case than they do.

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By Jason Frost on Mon, 02-27-12, 22:14

Ooh girl you get frisky. (x but Idk my friend is going to medical school for this stuff and he said to avoid getting stressed and take vitamins. Stay healthy and your immune system should fight it off, but Idk honestly. I just moved to San Antonio from this little town in Oklahoma and I haven't even lived here a year. It just sucks. Its like a punishment. :/ Idk.. It's just all crazy like why me? Why so young? But then again why anyone at all? Are we all not deemed worthy to live std free and healthy? Sighhhh questions for the ages I suppose

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By hiswife84 on Tue, 02-28-12, 04:45

Haha yea a little. I'm in Dallas. Sounds similar to HSV, we have to watch what we eat & get plenty of rest. Same thing, it affects the immune system so you have to try & stay healthy so it doesnt act up. It's sucks how you got it & I actually exposed myself so don't start feelin bad for me lol. Well I'm here if you want to chat or are having a bad day.

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By Jd26663 on Fri, 03-02-12, 19:45

Hey, I read your post and I just want you to know I was in your same position 2 years ago, I'm a 27 yo gay male and I had just gotten out of a 4 year relationship, so obviously being with someone that long we decided to get tested (for hiv) and go ahead and have unprotected sex once our results came back negative, long story short after we ended things about 8 months later I noticed it was really painful down there and itchy. I went to 3 doctors and no one could give me a straight answer, finally a really cold and rude dr. (who actually solved the puzzle) came in looked at me and said the exact same thing your doc said to you "you have anal hpv" and walked out of the room, came back 10 minutes later and told me I had to have surgery. I was so confused!! I had NEVER herd of hpv before! hiv yes, hpv no. I obviously knew what warts were when he told me they were anal warts. I have been dealing with this now for 2 years, they seem to come back almost every 2-3 months and I have to get them lazered off in the office. (beats having surgery like my first time) but now he just told me that theres new guidlines that anyone who has anal warts has to get pap smears to check for cancer. UGH, so I get my first anal pap smear next month, I'm nervous and scared all over again!! Why isn't there anymore information on this?!?! Why aren't people talking about this. I feel so alone! I finally just typed in the words "hpv support group" and found this. I know this post isn't goin to be comforting to you but it's reality and if you'd like to talk I'd be more than willing to make a friend. - James.

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By lylah11 on Fri, 03-02-12, 20:12

Most people living with herpes may feel lonely and shamed. But you are MORE than your STD, so give yourself a chance to love again.
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By Jason Frost on Fri, 03-02-12, 23:45

Aaahhh!!! None of this was comforting, Mr. James!! x_x I don't want this at all. I just want all of this to go away. I debt want to warts to come back!! :( ughhhhhh just.. Idk sleep on the railroad tracks.. Problem solved right? Lolz not really but Fuck.

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By hiswife84 on Sat, 03-03-12, 05:48

Sorry boys wish there was a cure for you & me but we just have to deal :-(

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