Lost, Confused, Hopeful...

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Hi guys I am a newbie and I was diagnosed with HPV about a year ago. I have the one that causes cervical cancer not warts. I want to tell my story (even though I feel I have told it a millions times) I just want to get it off my chest with people who understand, and I hope to make new friends here Anyways, so when I went in for my pap smear my gyno told me I had HPV (cervical dysplasia), she said it was mild or low-grade, I forgot which term she used but the fact was that it was mild and she calmed my fears saying it wasn't cancer. Of course I was still scared in my mind, I had no idea what it was... Researching online did not help as it scared me even more. After that pap smear my gyno sent me to another gyno to get a colposcopy to further find out how "bad" it was. I was very afraid, I have never had any kind of biopsy done in my entire life, so one that involved my va-jay-jay was not thrilling... lol. turns out it wasn't too bad, just felt like cramps on my period and i had spotting for about 2 days. So after that was done, I think it was about a week or 2 (I don't remember) but my gyno called me back in and told me everything was normal and to just come back in 6 months. He seemed pleased, seeming that I am young (24 years old) and healthy and he was confident it would clear up on its own without any other further treatment. THANK GOD. I felt relieved and happy, but after I left his office I still had a lot of unanswered questions, which in my state of mind I forgot to ask him.
I think I am scheduled for my next pap soon, I'm waiting for the call, and when I go in I want to ask what specific strain I have. I know I have the high risk one that causes c. cancer, but which one?

Second of all, I want to know if my pap smears keep coming out normal for years to come, can it ever "reactivate?" Does it ever go away is what I'm really wondering. I have read sooo many articles and they're all very 50/50 I'm just very confused. I have read you can cure cervical dysplasia but could it come back? Basically I already know it is a viral infection and those are lifelong so I guess I answered my own question??

Can my type of HPV affect my male counterpart? Like is it possible I can give him genital warts even though I don't have that kind?

Lastly, can I pass down my type of HPV to my children? I'm planning to have a family, but I don't want to give my children this... even though I know there are types of HPV that are not sexually transmitted... I just don't want them to have anything period.

Thank you guys so much for this community, I don't know who else to turn to. I'm too embarrassed to tell anyone about this. I have forgotten I have HPV for a while, but lately it's all I could ever think about. Sometimes I just feel so dirty and ashamed that I start to cry. I have always been a "good girl" and now I feel like damaged goods... I know everyone makes mistakes, but I can't help feeling this way...

Sorry if this is long, I had to get it off my chest! LoL

 
By ethes on Fri, 02-24-12, 04:11

Ok, first of all-write down a list of everything you want to ask your doc next time you go in. Keep it with you in case you think of something else. When you do go in write on your notes, some of the answers b/c when your worried and scared, listening and remembering every detail seems to be more difficult sometimes, Also, and maybe more importantly,,,you are a 'good girl' You have obviously broken your own moral conduct code. Ask yourself for forgiveness. Ask God for forgiveness and then...FORGIVE YOURSELF. Hope this has been helpful. God bless.

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